Published dream diary · English · released source text
Climbing out of the Paradise Beach
Nathalie Regard
101-nights -sleep and dream study night 043 (2023) · DREAMS section, Night 43; all recalled sections in this source-night entry, before the separate Day-by-Day waking log.
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I remember a dream facing a wonderful light green sea and a beautiful deserted beach of white sand, with a lover who is not [person A].
I’m eager to carry out a prosperous project, a great business aimed at bringing people to this wonderful place. I exert pressure to make what I am so enthused about happen, even though he believes it has been done before.
It is clear I cannot accept that as a reason to stop doing it. I don't even believe it is true. Yet for him it is not feasible. I suspect the real issue is he does not want to bother to make the effort. The situation reaches the point of being suffocating. I find no room for myself anymore, and I want to find the way out.
It is just another emotional
disappointment. I need to take it philosophically, since my reaction pushes me to look for a way out, and the exit path from the paradise beach is difficult. We climb a sand dune crumbling with each step. I only manage to advance by tiny bits. Walking up a pronounced slope is a huge effort. We fall apart; separation imposes itself.
I can overcome the situation with dignity reaching the top, where I finally feel free. I come up to a village, I see a park with trees across the street. Someone approaches to offer a glass of wine, which I accept with great pleasure. I perceive him following me, which I find disturbing and makes me hesitate.
This dream feels alien to me; it drags external energy.
Night 043
Source & context
A published self-diary by Nathalie Regard in 101 nights, co-created with Guillaume Dumas. Released English text; original language/translator not stated. Recalled sections from one source night stay grouped. Statements about people, health and events describe dreams, not verified facts or diagnoses. Not a Synastry community submission.
Nathalie Regard (dreamer, diarist and recorder); Guillaume Dumas (project co-creator). 101-nights -sleep and dream study night 043. Zenodo, 2023. DOI 10.5281/zenodo.7800215. CC BY 4.0. Synastry added navigation metadata, normalized linewraps and visibly bracketed changes; no new dream narrative or translation.
Only the source-night ordinal is used. The metadata publication year is not a dream date; month/day source headings are not promoted to an exact calendar date. No real-world personal location is inferred.
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Source locator and text provenance
DREAMS section, Night 43; all recalled sections in this source-night entry, before the separate Day-by-Day waking log.
The original text and redactions are preserved. The page title is an editorial navigation label.
Private references are visibly bracketed; any omitted no-recall preface or source recording/metadata heading is explicitly bracketed. Paragraph linewraps normalized. Title/themes/scene description are editorial navigation additions; no new narrative or translation.
Released English source wording retained with documented visible privacy substitutions and bracketed source-marker omissions; paragraph linewraps folded. No assertion of original language or translator.
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